To this day, I still think that he is the boy that I'd love until I die.

I think there were probably 2 boys in my entire life who I really loved. One was just a crazy obsession. LOL and the other one was quite real. They were one right after the other, too.

The first boy. How the hell am I supposed to describe him? At that time, I guess, he was the cutest boy to walk this Earth; I was just totally obsessed with him. And I mean a real obsession, to the point where I stalked him. I had (well, I still have some, haha) dozens of pictures of him, both saved on my computer, and developed. LMAO. I can't believe I was that crazy. I remember I made little letters and pictures. Even got 'married' to him through some website. LOLL I used to call him just for the heck of it. Befriended his friends, and found out things about him. Hell, they probably thought I was crazy. Except his other friend was sort-of cute. I remember he found out about my 'stalker ways' LOL and got totally creeped out. And told his friend to tell me to stop. But I didn't, and I should've listened to him. In my yearbook, that friend even wrote that the boy I liked was not worth it. And now I agree. I was oblivious to how much of a jerk he was. I still remember March 28th, 2005. That day was just a total embarrassment for me. And only 2 people know why. SO I am not going to go into details. I think that was the last day I ever really felt something for him. My 'love' died away along with the cup of coffee I bought.. -___-x IDK I just think I tried too hard to get him to like me, and I was just not into the 'real' him. Hell. That thing lasted 3 years. And wasted 3 years of my boyhunting life. But then I met Morrison, but that's another story... Haha

And then the other boy. I thought we had quite a lot of chemistry, but it only lasted a year and 3 months. To this day, I still think that he is the boy that I'd love until I die. I just think that if he didn't up and leave me, we'd still be together right now. And when I say up and leave, I don't mean it literally.. well kind of. Haha. I don't know what was wrong, but I guess one day he just couldn't 'stay' anymore. One day, he was just kind of gone. And it really sucked butt. I waited a year after that, but I just assumed that he wasn't coming back. When I first met him, we just clicked, and it was great from thereon. I still remember that one conversation we had. I asked him if he had a girlfriend, because I started to really like him. And he said yes, so of course I was bummed out. And he told me that it was me. Cliche, I know. But it was cute for me.